Chistopher has had a bad two days, actually a bad two weeks (over-all). Over the last six weeks we have been gradually decreasing Christopher's anxiety medication. The reason for the decrease is because it is known to increase restless legs; and with Christopher's sleeping disorder and restless legs, we needed to make the transition off. He had been on the medication for four years.
We noticed last week everything was making him cry. Nothing in particular set them off, just tears after tears after tears. It was manageable, we got through it, but it was exhausting. It never crossed my mind it could possibly be the medication changes and I still can't say that is what it was.
As of today, he has been completely off the anxiety medication for two days.
Christopher had a complete melt down this morning which included the emotion, full sensory and violence. He went from hiding under the corner under the table while screaming to running through the house and out the door screaming at the top of his lungs that he hates us and we are idiots. During his rage he yelled at me, "I will stab you!"
These melt downs start and end in the blink of an eye. This one lasted right at 47 minutes. Once he came out of the melt down, he allowed me to touch him and hold him in my arms.
We rocked in the recliner.
As I turned on the television, he saw a rainbow. I don't know what channel it was on, but scriptures were on the screen. As I read the scriptures out loud I began praying them over our lives. When the scriptures stopped a song playing was that sounded like, "glue me together Lord. . . " and then another scripture appeared, it was Ecclesiastes 3:11, "He has made everything beautiful in it's own time."
How perfect is the timing of such a sweet message. While I already see my son as beautiful, I know He is working in our life situation to bring about something even better than we can even imagine.
Where does my hope come from? My hope, my strength, comes from the Lord ;)
Continuing to Walk in Victory,