Friday, October 29, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Having a rough few weeks emotionally. Not sure what is going on. I have found myself not being content, not being satisfied, anger over situations, jealous over others situations and just not understanding.
I’d like to sit here and tell you I’m over it, but then I could add being a liar to my list of shames.
I try every day to be thankful and to give praise for circumstances/situations; after all there are so many people that have life worse than our present circumstances, but when I see day after day so many people succeeding and me, us, struggling, I get mad and wonder “what’s the point?” Why try so hard. I don’t know. I just don’t know.
So today, I am sorry I don’t have any encouraging words. I am at a spot where I can’t even pray for myself so if you are reading this, I sure would appreciate your prayers.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
I just realized 12 years ago TONIGHT, (October 19, 2010, I gave my life to Jesus.
"Lord, please forgive me for looking at my circumstances and for not trusting you; forgive me for forgetting; forgive me for doubting; forgive me for not trusting you. I love you Lord and praise you for who you are and for the miracles you have done in my life. Amen."
I am not through setting up this blog, and there will be many changes and alterations, but I have added it to my Treasure's from Life's Garden blog, so thought I'd go ahead and share it.
The URL address is http://www.staceypadenavon.blogspot.com/.
Thanks for visiting and I would love your input on what you would be interested in reading about.
Have a GREAT day!
Sunday, October 17, 2010
We took the kids to Holland Farms in Jay, FL Saturday. It was Chris’, Christopher, and Kaitlyn’s first time ever to a pumpkin patch! Kayla and I had gone many MOONS ago! She was a baby the last time she and I went. In fact, I’ve not had a pumpkin since Chris and I got married! Not sure why; I know I have struggled with Halloween the last few years, I hate it. I try to put out some fall decor and try to persuade my kids from dressing up. This year we are going to Pine Summit's Fall Carnival and then their "Trunk or Treat" night. This will allow them to play and have fun with it, but will keep me from having to deal with the evilness so many get in to. What’s so crazy is Halloween is Kayla’s favorite holiday! We are so opposite. I don’t like anything scary, bloody or creepy sounding . . . she thrives on it! AAAAGGGGHHHH!
Anyway, we had a great time at the pumpkin patch and enjoyed making memories in Paden Household this weekend!
I don’t know how to undo group pictures and have individuals so I can put captions under them, so will work on it later.
**Christopher and Kaitlyn cleaning their first pumpkins! For some crazy reason, we haven't had a pumpkin since Chris and I got married! We had a family afternoon at Holland Farm's in Jay, got pumpkins, boiled peanuts, and a hay ride for $5 a person, PLUS SOME GREAT COUNTRY AIR and PRICELESS MEMORIES!
**Kaitlyn, "I am NOT putting my hand in THAT!"
**cheese puff mouth :)
**Kayla being DANGEROUS with a CUTCO! RUN!
Friday, October 15, 2010
I’ve been having health issues for several years now. After my husband went to see someone that is ‘out of the norm,’ and seeing some positive results, I went.
In one ‘office’ visit, the following was ‘diagnosed.’ Not sure if that is the correct word, but my brain is tired and I can’t think too long on it or I’ll get side tracked, so if that is not the correct word, my apologies.
I have an underactive thyroid. I have been on medication for approximately ten years. Every few years the dosage is increased, but has only been “balanced” once or twice in those ten years. I found out that medication for thyroid actually destroys the thyroid gland. I didn’t know that.
Several years ago I was diagnosed with depression. I have fought that ‘diagnosis’ tooth and nail. I have never been able to understand how I could have this miraculous faith, this HOPE in Christ and the EXPERIENCE of where He has brought me and be depressed. While I DO know depression is a real disease, I don’t know if the diagnosis I was given, was given with complete insight into my life. I’m not here to argue the diagnosis, but the facts I do know are mind boggling. I have been taking a high dosage (60mg of Prozac) daily for approximately two or three years. The purpose of taking an antidepressant is to increase the serotonin levels in ones brain. My levels were basically non-existent, even with the high dosages I was taking of Prozac. That means the medication I have been taking was not doing me any good.
My testing showed exhaustion (FINALLY SOMEONE BELIEVED ME!). I can sleep for twelve hours and still be tired, never feeling rested.
During this appointment, it was discussed that the MANY synthetic drugs I take are causing physical stressors on my body.
I was told I have kidney stones AND was told that even though I have no gall bladder, I have gall stones that have collected in my liver causing my liver to be slow functioning. I had my gall bladder removed approximately four years ago. The months following the surgery were absolutely horrible. The pain I experienced was worse than the NATURAL childbirth I went through with my youngest two children, yet I was told there was nothing there. Based on the information given regarding the stones, I am convinced the pain I was experiencing is from the gall stones and kidney stones. These last two weeks I have passed NUMEROUS, NUMEROUS gall stones . . . . but we won’t go any further than that!
It is confirmed I do have Attention Deficit Disorder. It was explained to me that this “disorder” is a gift. People with ADD are usually great multi-taskers. I had never thought of it that way before. Hopefully once I get through this exhaustion phase, I will be able to use my ADD to once again multi-task and do all that is required of me ? . . . I can hope at least.
A few years ago I broke my foot, yes, delivering AVON. Since then I have continued to experience pain from my ankle to the back tendon. During my appointment, I found out the break never healed correctly, hence the reason I am still in pain.
I also found out I have a Vitamin K deficiency and a potassium deficiency (which eating bananas as an adult does NOT give us the daily amounts our body needs . . . I didn’t know that either).
I have an infection in my teeth from a head injury where I cracked/broke teeth. Two of those teeth have been removed; however, the other ones are being more stubborn to locate! We are working on getting the infection cleared up so I won’t have to lose any more teeth any time soon.
I am allergic to VINEGAR (yes, and I wash my clothes with vinegar in my Tide with Bleach . . . . but not anymore)!. Do you know that almost everything has vinegar in it?! AND, here is the kicker, I have food poisoning. Apparently the magnesium aspartame (??I think that’s right??) that is in just about EVERY shelf stable item has this in it. I can’t have it.
So… what does that mean? I have to completely change my way of cooking, thinking, eating. With lack of income, and having the above mentioned information, Chris and I talked (because he saw this lady also), we decided to make some changes. Fresh produce is very experience, as is frozen. I’ve not cooked with fresh herbs before and can’t say I really know what I’m doing, but I’m trying.
I bought fresh herbs, winter vegetable plants, fruit bushes/trees and strawberry plants. Chris has been working and helping me; but is paying the price with each new “project.”
I was and still am overwhelmed with all this; and in fact, I go back next month to discuss other ‘issues.’ I was hoping to have a weight loss by then, but in the last two weeks, even after adjusting what is going in, I am GAINING weight! It’s crazy. I don’t know if it is my body in complete rebellion, or what is going on, but what I do know, is even with the crazy weight, I actually feel better physically than I have in years!
I’ve weaned myself off all the medications I was on, even the medication for Fibromyalgia. With not having insurance, we can’t afford all those medications anyway, so I am taking supplements purchased from Everman's and learning.
I prepared my first dinner with herbs from the garden last night and it was really good! I am researching a lo, asking a lot of questions, and trying new 'things,' but I will get there.
The following are a few pictures of our winter garden. I have seeds started of mustard, turnips, radishes, onions, spinach. Planted in the ground already are purple and green cabbage, broccoli, and two types lettuces.
Chris has already lost a LOT of weight. I am thrilled for him, but for me, the last three days I have eaten and craved food like crazy. I am continuing to gain weight, but hopeful to become healthy through all this. . . . and MAYBE the cravings for DQ’s Peanut Buster Parfait will be of the past sooner, verses later!
Saturday, October 9, 2010
If you are a lady that likes to ‘do up the eyes,’ then you will want to enter this give-a-way!
I am giving away mark Seeing Stripes Eye Color Trios & Snap To It Palette Set! (You will receive the colors pictured below.)
You can enter this give-a-way through Friday, October 15th until 6:00 P.M CST.
To enter, leave your name, phone number and/or email address in the comment section.
ALSO, If you refer someone to enter you will double your chance to win. Make sure your referral puts their name, your name and a contact email!
I will announce the winner on Monday.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Yesterday was my birthday. I turned 39.
For 38 years I received a birthday card from my Mammow. I didn’t get one this year. It was tough.
I miss her every day; holiday’s and special events are just tough.
I’m thankful for a husband that let me cry while yet enjoying my day. Some people wouldn’t get it, but he did.
I’m truly blessed. :)
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
I learned so much through The Most Excellent Way ministry. When I started attending the meetings, they had two meetings a week, one on Tuesday’s, and one on Friday’s.
Through the meetings, I learned life, Biblical application. There are several, several scriptures the Lord used to bring revelation and healing to a broken, wounded heart.
One scripture, in particular, is Titus 3:3-8.
“At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. But, when the kindness and loved of God our Savoir appeared, he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savoir, so that, having been justified by his grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life. This is a trustworthy saying and I want you to stress these things so that those who have trusted in God may be careful to devote themselves to doing what is good. These things are excellent and profitable for everyone.”
Many will read these scriptures and think “that has nothing to do with me because I’m not a drunk, or a drug addict,” so if that is your mind set, let me say, “shame on you!”
Are you a sinner? Let’s be more specific….
Have you ever been foolish or made foolish decisions?
Are you obedient to the Lord, in everything?
What are you enslaved to? Pleasure doesn’t necessarily mean pleasure here. You think it’s a pleasure puking your guts up from drinking too much day after day after day and have black out moments? Is is pleasure when we gamble our last penny on ‘the big win?” Is is pleasure for our families to fall apart because we put the world before Him? We are deceived by what the world tells us is pleasure.
My favorite word in these particular scriptures is ‘but.’ The word ‘but’ means “except for the fact <would have protested but that he was afraid>; used after a negative <there is no doubt but he won>. Basically, it ‘undoes’ what the previous words state.
So lets reread the scriptures with emphasis on the word ‘but,’ and see if it changes our perspective.
“At one time we (Stacey) too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We (I) lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. (Boy did and was I!)
BUT, when the kindness and loved of God our Savoir appeared(was shown to Stacey), he (Jesus Christ) saved us, not because of righteous things we (Stacey) had done, but because of his (Jesus Christ’s) mercy. He saved us (Stacey) through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us (Stacey) generously through Jesus Christ our Savoir, so that, having been justified by his grace, we (Stacey) might become heirs having the hope of eternal life. This is a trustworthy saying and I want you to stress these things so that those who have trusted in God (this is where I/you/we testify by our actions of HIS grace!) may be careful to devote themselves to doing what is good. These things are excellent and profitable for everyone.”
**Sigh** I’m thankful for a time of reflecting this morning.