Wednesday Weigh In … Doing The Happy Dance!

I had my Weight Watchers weigh in today. I was a little anxious because Chris and I had gone to Hemmingway’s for our anniversary this past Friday night. While I did good with my dinner and portions, when I saw their Key Lime Pie … oh my! Chris ordered one and lets just say it was better than I could have imagined! PLUS it was so big, Chris and I couldn’t even finish it (and that’s sayin’ something!).

Other than that, I really didn’t stray, but you never know, you know?!

I stepped on the scales (I wear the same thing every week so I don’t have any reason to make excuses if I have a weight gain), and when the lady's eyes got wide, and a smile came across her face I knew I had at least lost a pound! Imagine my surprise when she told me I had lost 5 more pounds!!! I just couldn’t believe it. Not only did I lose 5lbs; in 4 weeks I met my first goal of 5% weight loss, which was 13lbs. As of today, I have lost 15lbs! It seems like just yesterday I started on this journey, and while I can not see a difference in my appearance, or even in my clothes, I can see it on the scales. For that I am so thankful.

So, until next weeks weigh in . . . . . . . .

Stacey

Weight Watchers Weigh In, Week 2

With the emotions running high from the final approval for a Habitat for Humanity home, and then the heart breaking news of my Pappow passing away, I forgot to check in for my weekly weigh in.

If you recall, I was devastated to only lose four pounds last week. I had worked so hard. My prayer and hopes for this weigh in was, "Lord, please let me lose two pounds, that's all I ask."

He was faithful, He allowed me to lose four more pounds last week! I felt a huge sigh of relief. I have come to realize that any number losing is better than an ounce of gaining!

I am not expecting a loss this week as I am dealing with the emotions of loss from both my grandparents this summer; however, I am still trying to make the right choices. If I can maintain or even lose a pound at week three weigh in, I will tickled.

We leave in just a few hours for Jackson to bury my Pappow. I haven't even started to pack and have two AVON deliveries that absolutely have to be made before I leave town.

I don't know why I am having such a hard time getting started.

I also have give-a-way winnings yet to mail. My Canadian friend, I haven't forgotten you and Becca, I haven't forgotten you either. I will do my best to get things in the mail next week.

Blessings on each of you this day,

Stacey

Counting It So, Though It Is Not, So It Will Be!

The title of this post is a quote from my Pastor, Ted Traylor. I am posting it on index cards and placing it through out my house today.

Last year, on January 7th, I awoke knowing the Lord was going to change my life, but in order for Him to do that, I had to surrender an area of my life I had been holding on to...my eating. I started making a change that very day and on January 9th I signed up for Weight Watchers. In four short months I had lost 35 pounds! I was so proud. In May, I started to not deal with "life" very well. In June I was diagnosed with Depression. I began eating and gorging all over again. As of today, I have gained the 35 pounds I lost and an additional 5. I've had a headache for four days now and my feet have been swollen since Sunday. I imagine my blood pressure is high. Diabetes, Heart Disease, High Cholesterol and Obesity all run in my family. I don't want that. For me, food is just as much of an addiction as is the alcohol I used to consume. Gorging and making bad food choices is just as toxic as consuming alcohol. Now, just because I know the facts does not make this easy for me. While I don't want to die an early death because of me making bad choices in eating habits, I have no will power, self control, or desire to do this. Say what you want, but eating healthy cost more, takes more time to plan, and requires dedication. For this task, I just don't have it in me.... I know, I know, the Holy Spirit that resides in me can do it... I know all the scriptures, I know what He can do, because He has done it for me for nearly 11 years of sobriety... so, here is where I am this very moment. I already started drinking more water a few weeks back. I'm breaking out my 64 oz jug I got from Weight Watchers, I'm digging out my 12 or 14 weeks of pamphlets and my journal guide, and I am going to start making better choices. This is where the title of my post comes in... COUNTING IT SO, THOUGH IT IS NOT, SO IT WILL BE! I have to make a change, I don't want to hate my pictures being taken like at family gatherings this past weekend. I want to be able to go for walks with my kids and not feel like I'm gonna croke! I wanna be able to ride rides at the fair this year with my kids.

So, the big picture, I am ... (holding my breath)...100 pounds over weight. Yikes. My doctor's notes said I was "morbidly obese." (sigh...) I was in such a hurry last year and lost great amounts...3 - 6 pounds a week. I'm scared to lose that much now because I put it all back on so quickly. I know I'm being redundant, I just know I need to make a change... We cannot afford for me to attend the weekly meetings; so I am holding myself accountable first to the Lord, but also to you. Once I have lost my weight goal, I will share my weight with you. However, I will weigh in every Thursday. I will be real, I will be honest. My short term goal is 5 pounds a month. I know that sounds silly, but I am having to put my mind in gear here.

Now that I've not only been real with you, but with myself for the first time in months, I have something cool that Lord gave me this morning...just a few minutes ago actually. I was sitting here, when this bright light caught my attention. (I had opened the outside door in our room to let some fresh air in earlier this a.m.) The piercing light was a sun ray shining through that door, our room, kitchen and reflecting off the computer screen... blinding me. I got up and took a picture. It's not the greatest picture as the trees from my neighbors yard is filtering the light... but it's the same tree filters that allowed me the reflection this morning....

Lamentations 3:22 & 23 says, "Because of the Lord's faithful love, we do not perish, for His mercies never end. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness!" That's the verse He gave me this morning, that every day is a new day, therefore, every day gives me a new HOPE. For me, that's my Father in Heaven, ushering me into His presence, to show me that He is here, that this is the time for me to get well, spiritually, physically, and emotionally. Kind of cool...huh?!

I am still enjoying my sister being home. She is such a great mommy. Hudson is absolutely beautiful.

One of Chris' new medications he takes for diabetes has had a weird affect on him, he is in bed. He never calls in sick to work, but it's making him loo-loo!

I have over 60 pies to make today...so I have to get started.